“When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?” (from 365-days-of-writing-prompts)
I guess the fist time I really felt like a grown up, was when I was fifteen years old (I matured early) and I “ran away from home”. I decided to hitch hike across Canada to British Columbia. In hind sight it really was not the most mature thing I could do.
The freedom I felt was fantastic. I really felt self-confident for the first in a long time.
Of course I had no idea that I was on a big manic high – Until I returned home and crashed into a bad depression about two weeks later and quit school, and had my first thoughts of suicide. I should have looked for help then but I had no Idea what was happening.
I don”t remember feeling too grown up then.